It's all about me, me, ME.

Currently listening to: Rihanna feat. Chris Brown - Nobody's Business.

 

So, this is it.. My first blog! I honestly have no clue what to write, or where to start. But I'm sure once I get started I will have plenty to say and probably won't shut up. I am so useless with all this, I don't even know if what I am writing now will even appear on my blog seeing as I have no clue how to work it all. I really need to get to grips with all this technology if I am ever going to become a writer/blogger in the future!

 

This first blog I think I will just base it all around me. You've got to start somewhere and at least I know quite a bit about myself to write about. Whether it will be of any interest to you (if anyone is even reading) I do not know. But it's a start at least :)

 

My name is Jessie, no not Jessica, Jessie. It is not a nickname, it's not short for anything! It's Jessie. It drives me insane when people ask me if my name is actually Jessica! Noooooo, it's Jessie. Anyway, now that we have established that, lets move swiftly on. I'm in my first year in university at the moment in Cardiff, and I'm studying Jounalism, Media and Cultural Studies. I really have no clue what I want to do when I graduate. I did want to be a journalist until our lecturer basically said journalists are underpaid and have to do long hours and have no chance of a family life. He said that most journalists enjoyed their job and were "content" with it.. But for me that is not enough. How am I meant to live my dream life style and drive round in a shiny white Range Rover wearing my designer clothes and eating food from M&S every day if I'm working in a job that I'm content with but has crap pay? No thanks. So I'm basically studying this degree and wondering what the hell I am going to do with my life.

 

I worry.. a lot. Basically I cause my whole life to be one massive stress when it doesn't have to be. The reason I'm writing this blog is to prepare myself for the challenge of getting a career after I graduate. The way I see it, the more I do now, the better off I'll be in the future. And then maybe I can just eat M&S food every day and still keep dreaming for the shiny white Range Rover. At least one of my ambitions in life will be fulfilled.

 

I do love Cardiff but I really miss home. Even though I go home every weekend, the few days I am here I still miss my little rural town, where everyone knows everyone and I can see green rolling hills around me instead of office blocks. I wish I wasn't so homesick so that I could travel one day and maybe work away. I love the city life style, but in reality I am too much of a wimp. If a job meant moving to London, I would have to pack my whole family in my suitcase, but I doubt my mother would ever leave my hometown either. As someone once told me it's like living in a Spider's Web and once you're there, you're trapped forever. Luckily for me I have had the chance to break free from that web and experience new things but I realise that maybe I am already trapped there. I know that's where I will live for the rest of my life.. and in all honesty, I wouldn't have it any other way!

 

I have decided that this blog will be like some sort of diary. Here I will pour out my thoughts and feelings about every day life, whether it's personal or global and discuss what I think. It's basically going to be one big massive rant about anything and everything. And hopefully this will help me to achieve what I want to some day. :)